I’m letting go

this year I finally decided to start living with the fact that it’s ok to stop mourning the events of September 11th. (for ME in MY life) 

some time has passed (obviously), aside from the fact that I was located near downtown Manhattan on that day, NOTHING makes me any more different or special than any other human being alive. So I’ve decided to not be catatonic looking at footage on MSNBC or any news outlets on the anniversary. For the longest time I equated “We will not forget..” with “I will stay glued to the tv and re-live the horror ” every year. I don’t mean this as an insult to anyone still trying to come to grips with the tragedies,

What I’ve learned this week 5/1

much like all other weeks, this weeks was slow… although it WILL be picking up in 3 weeks

…… trivia can once again be fun!!

…… morons who are sore losers can ruin the biggest of victories with the sourest of  grapes

…… giving up is sometimes not a good option

…… Bea Arthur was an excellent comedianne

I’m not really good at spontaneity

one thing you really cannot discount on Valentines Day. EVERY SINGLE RESTAURANT will have a HUGE WAIT. So as I stated in a previous post my intention was to “do italian”. As soon as my beloved got home that plan was modified to Red Lobster. Well after a slow start we finally made it to a very busy Red Lobster (which I wasn’t going to wait 75 minutes for). 2nd choice was Olive Garden, upon our arrival my love informed me that SHE didnt want to wait their 70 minute wait. Soooo whats a hungry man to do?

Well we did what I said we wouldn’t do, we found ourselves at Rancho Chico, it’s a bit better than Dos Amigos and it’s more authentic. Dos Amigos is more schticky and really doesnt have hispanics working there (only in kitchen positions)  I also learned a very important lesson, when eating mexican, eat in moderation. We didnt have gastronimical accidents this time around

Personal Update Tuesday the 12th

So far this week we’ve been looking at homes. It’s no secret that we’re dieing to jump out of this cookoo’s nest called an apartment and hopefully land in a place where we have been ok’d for a non ARM mortgage and something we can afford. Hopefully we’ll survive, I’ll be posting pics of prospective places, check back soon

Early Thursday morning

well, so far a usual early Thursday. The good news, on the.. watched pot situation, I’m in the process of.. watching a few more pots. I am sorry for all the secretive backwards jargon, but.. it’s not nice to talk. Soooo, so far so good.

Update for Wednesday early morning…

I’m a little sad. Very tired, I’ve surpassed exhaustion and I’m more like.. in a zombie like trance.. not to mention that it’s still all “eggshells” here.  Just waiting… Surrealistically waiting..

I’m still here

well Im still ok…. i think. I’m still in Limbo (refer. looking at the pot and waiting for it to boil)…. At the current moment Im watching top 100 of the 90s and Im peaking nutrionally from dinner… I feel wired at the moment. Tonight is kind of nice, a calm end to the week……. a suck-tacular week it has been. Hopefully the pot is close to boil. Look for more at a future date in ref to all my secret squirrel talk

Ummmm

 Im in a very particular mood. Its like watching a pot and waiting for it to boil. Can’t say too much right now

Kind of like life.. but not really

my life is … for lack of a better term/or a cliche a day by day thing. I remember life clearly up north… I remember friends, family cigarette smoke and traffic. Life isnt all THAT much differently down here. I have…. umm a friend or two, I have family, I have the Love of My Life Alexis, I have the occasional cigar, and traffic down here tends to be a joke.

But still, life seems different. I dont know if it’s the biting cold. I dont know if it’s the usual hustle and bustle.. but something is definitly different. I don’t know if I miss it. Life is sure enough interesting though… who knows where we’ll be in 20 years.